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| Thursday, December 3rd, 2009 | | 10:23 am |
dry hands
the only sounds are banging trash cans and the whir of the heat fan. everybody's gone and i'm home alone stoned in bed, looking at the internet and all of my ties weakening, and i cant help but feel easy in my social isolation. i keep having dreams about knockin' creeps out with my u-lock on my bike, and then i day dream about riding bikes around in post-apocalyptic america, knockin' creeps out. | | Sunday, November 1st, 2009 | | 8:45 pm |
halloween is obnoxious
thinkin about the future, thinkin about the past, yearning for risk and playing dice wars as a substitute. wasting a bunch of time, getting back into productivity, sometimes i want to live in a cave. learning how to budget, i'm broke for a couple of weeks, but not broken. seasons changing makes me uneasy, but merr is so sweet. gitzfibbons day is coming! children! my head is spiiiinnning with music theory. | | Friday, October 9th, 2009 | | 6:28 pm |
putting off homework
i feel so tired all of the time, and the coffee maker's gargling makes me feel like an adult. i got a haircut, i always feel faster, and uncomfortable. our new apartment really makes me want a pack of cigarettes. lunch bunch this month! | | Wednesday, August 19th, 2009 | | 1:00 pm |
internet messages.
something like having your brain abruptly ripped from your skull and floating around neighborhoods on bikes at 3 am. i keep falling in love with marisa, inbetween wall punches and temper tantrums, which are becoming less frequent. there are just so many unfinished things right now, to the point where i need to plan my time and write out a schedule, and my isolation is starting to make sense. | | Friday, August 7th, 2009 | | 12:05 pm |
this west l.a. craigslist bluetooth creep that was living in my apartment complex had been giving me some trouble, just being a fucking jerk, and when jerryn was around before he left to canada i called him out and he wanted to fight me off of the property. marisa was yelling from behind me "yeah you're a fucking jerk!" and jerryn was tensing up half expecting to get into a fight with this bleach blonde balding weirdo at least twice our age. he was wearing a puffy vest. work really hurts my heart sometimes, when my whole day is fucked. matt got marisa this bitchin orange black spotted schwinn continental, and now we commence bike things. | | Monday, August 3rd, 2009 | | 7:18 pm |
| | Thursday, July 30th, 2009 | | 7:29 am |
the name of it is deception
a poem for my internet journal: wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah deception. i'm starting to try to force out of body experiences or astral projections. so far i can relax enough, but its hard to focus when you live next to a freeway and a major street in los angeles. i'm going back to school kind of and all of my classes are totally free because i was very poor last year. all music classes and hopefully spanish. i'm picking up a few things from the cooks at work. mexicans love me, and i love mexicans, i promise. | | Saturday, July 25th, 2009 | | 12:52 pm |
so i'm having a real good time. saw meth teeth and some other bands on sunday at nicks house the night before a test and i got all fucked up anyway, and then we saw casiotone on thursday at the echo after chugging charles shaw in the car. we've been listening to this night control cd obsessively. i'm working on another song and hoping to finish it as i've worked on a handful in the past month but nothing came out that i've liked. also lunch bunch issue two is in the works but i'm not very far into it with school and work and getting stoned all of the time. very excited about moving in with marshall and jerryn. houses are looking affordable and everybody is doing fine financially, and its just going to be so silly. i already have a band name for us, marshalls learning how to play the fiddle and he has really good gay vocals, and being around jerryn we'll be able to get some brilliant lunch bunch stories together. and marisa is still very beautiful and logical and i dont know how i survived before. | | Thursday, July 16th, 2009 | | 12:44 am |
tired eyes
all i've been eating is fat guy food and yay for merr! my favorite thing is waking up to food in my face. i could easily become morbidly obese if i wanted, but i dont, so i'll stop. | | Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 | | 7:45 pm |
| | Monday, July 13th, 2009 | | 8:46 pm |
| | Sunday, July 12th, 2009 | | 6:25 pm |
sometimes every person i see just looks so UGLY | | Saturday, July 11th, 2009 | | 1:18 am |
weight on
sometimes i really like to carb up before i go to work, but i know its not a very good idea. | | Thursday, July 9th, 2009 | | 2:32 pm |
we were in the desert on monday for 8 hours and it turned out to be a nice time but at this point i'm just totally turned off by the place. the course of the day coincided with an already blazed path of destruction; smoldering road sides, a truck crashing into jerryns wall, old women terrified of youth, jevan turned into such an unbelievable douche bag its hard to believe. it worked out so nicely though. bri looks beautiful and i'm so unbelievably happy for them, lunch bunch was pretty well received by the people i'd shown it to, we managed a bucket of margaritas and a cooler full of beers at johns gigantic house which ended up in a ridiculous late night post swim piano/drums jam. marisas gone and i wish i could lay around all day with her and coax her into buying me soda and candy but i guess its a good time to start working on issue two and maybe work on some songs that have been neglected for a while. i'm very hyped on music theory and i think i'm going to take a continuation in the fall semester. also today i'm starting work on issue two of lunch bunch, which should take less time than the first since i have a better idea of what i'm doing. we're planning on getting a laser printer to save on costs and such, i think i want to move up to legal size paper. but thats all very whatever at the moment, i just want to establish something. the urge to smoke cigarettes is pretty much totally gone, but i still have pipes on the brain. i took a look at my credit the other day and i owe a little over 5,000 dollars in debt most for hospital bills and student loans and partly unpaid bills and library fees. its totally doable though, just not right now. i've heard michael jackson songs everyday since he died and its coming to the point where its enough for a long while. | | Saturday, July 4th, 2009 | | 9:56 am |
writing an internet journal.
i like america just fine. i was just very resentful towards the illuminati and trilateral commission when i was very poor and depressed. blaming all of your problems on society and government. i quit smoking cigarettes, which is cool. my mood has been fluctuating a lot and its kind of like "hey merr! you're the cutest," and minutes later its "MERR STOP WHISTLING! FUCK!" but i'm getting better about it. i've decided to replace cigarettes with pipe tobacco on occasion. i'm feeling very good about that. the fruits i have on hand just so happen to be red white and blue so its either america french toast or america cereal. i like american french toast in theory but what a mess. i'm printing lunch bunch today and tomorrow! i'll have information and shit up on my myspace and if anybody wants a copy just let me know! what it is is a comic style zine about a pack of brats and becoming one with the buffalo. two dollars! one of the mexican guys i work with drew this bitchin cobra on a napkin while we were counting tips and it was glowing with power. | | Wednesday, July 1st, 2009 | | 12:35 pm |
now! now! now! now!
i cant stop reading those james kochalka comics that eli was talking about. they're really really good. matt and chris are gone and its a big bummer but now that i have no one to consistently party with i'm able to hunker down on all of my unfinished things. also its nice to know i have a place to sleep if i decide to go to san francisco. i'm trying not to smoke, i havent purchased a pack since last thursday and last one i smoked was yesterday afternoon and its turning out okay. sometimes i can feel how much i want it in my stomach but then i'm distracted by something and it goes away. or i eat food or candy consistently. having a bit of a problem at the moment with time management. the internet is wasting moments of my life. i'm going to change that right now. also i really like the idea of only eating ONE REALLY LARGE MEAL a day. it doesnt work in practice though, for me at least. good luck with that. grandma. | | Saturday, June 27th, 2009 | | 11:26 am |
sticky pop rubbin off on you in the super market.
just had a couple of intense days going on but in the best ways you can do it. just goofin around and whatever. matt and chris are leaving to san francisco on monday and its bummin me out, but, i'm picking up that drum set today and i have a reason to visit san francisco now. when i move to the other side of town and i have more time i'm hoping to get very involved in community things all of the time such as echo curio, smell, rides, while distributing lunch bunch and after the summer we'll see if i can solidify my music enough to start playing shows. shows probably wont be a problem soon enough seeing as practice space is a priority and at that time we we'll have all of the instruments and equipment and shit together. i believe jerryns parents are letting us take some of their shit too. its very very very easy to ruin a serious michael jackson toast. | | Friday, June 19th, 2009 | | 7:58 pm |
snowballs
i think both marisa and i have had the threes company theme stuck in our heads consistently for the past 2 weeks. my tummy is full of yummy sushi. i'm way almost done with lunchbunch, i'm going to do the final pages when i'm out of my mind. its turning out much better than i thought and i'm very proud. everything is going swell. this is the first time summers started outside of the desert and its a relief to know life exists outside of those mountain walls. marisa and i are focused on whats to come and we love eachother very much. i've been so shortsighted. i start class on monday, gotta readjust to waking up in the morning time. | | Wednesday, June 10th, 2009 | | 1:12 am |
"STEV!"
i'm just starting to get reallll comfortable in my little nest with just the two of us. its becoming more and more difficult to deal with anything outside of ourselves. trying to not spend any money, tightening the belts, that kind of thing. marisa carries herself along real responsibly. i feel so short sighted. but then i've had enough food hangovers, as well as beer hangovers, and i'm in a very focused mindset now. i'm real super psyched on lunch bunch and i'm almost halfway through with the first issue. after i get the ball rolling i'm going to be taking submissions, that is to say if anybody reads it at all. i sometimes feel as if being around only one person and limited weberverse social skills skews my perception, but i dont know how much that actually matters. been piggin out, drinking beers, wearing shorts, watching basketball, enjoying my time and all that comes with it. antenna tv is done in a couple of days and i'll be sad to lose the simpsons and king of the hill, but only so much. theres always the internet, is what i've found. i think the concept of being mean to little kids is very funny. in practice it would be a major bummer. sticky little kids, sticky, sticky, little shits. been having a string of uncomfortable dreams, not unbearable, more uneasy. like cramped, smokey, dimlit chinese ghettos. i want to see the great wall of china, and do a superman seat grab over it for endorsements and money. lots of things always feel unfinished but i think thats the way to do it.  | | Friday, June 5th, 2009 | | 11:07 am |
haircut
there have been so many times lately when i come on here, write out a paragraph and then delete it. i'm feeling more anxious lately and my dreams are turning sour. keepin a good head though, everybodys got their problems. i started working on this comic that i've had in mind for a while but its coming out a lot more detailed than i had intended and its taking me a while. its so strange to see how time is passing now, everybody in other directions in this fast motion approach to adult hood, this all makes me very nervous and i start to think about the future a lot. even as far as the present goes i cant really imagine what kind of waste of space i would be without merr. oh yeah! i'm pretty sure some fucking jerkwad popped my front tire when it was locked up outside of ralphs lastnight and these asian assholes were skateboarding right around there at 11:50 pm. as time goes on in santa monica i'm just really starting to not care for asians. at all. i dont give a fuuck. |
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